I love life and some times wonder why it has to be so hard? I don’t like being alone but I am OK with it. I want love and love to give it back, the problem with love is that I think I am good at it when some times I have no idea what I am doing. People come and going my life and I wish just one would stay! The best love I have ever gotten was from my dog Toby! But Toby is dieing! I am trying to be strong for him but it’s not easy. Toby is right next to me right now, but I don’t think he will make it through the night! He is breathing real hard and walking is getting harder every hour. I have never seen any thing die before but I got a feeling I am seeing it tonight! I hope and pray that I am wrong.
I wish this was not happening but God is in control and I trust in him! I don’t want to go to sleep and then wake up to find Toby dead. I know it will make me stronger, but I’m not ready for this. Well, this is not what I wanted to write about to night but it’s real life. I am going to try to sleep and hope things will work out.