Old Blogs from my, myspace page

I once used myspace all the time but now I don’t use it very much.  Below are some old blogs I posted.
November 28, 2008 – Friday

Thanksgiving 08 Current mood:  grateful
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

I want to say Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends new and old.  Some of you may not know me all that well so as time goes by I will try to write a little about me here each day.  This is my first Thanksgiving all by myself and I kind of like it.  I got divorced last December and in February 08 mom had a bad stroke and is now in a care center.  About 2 weeks after mom had her stroke, I slipped on the ice while out delivering newspapers late one night.  I broke and dislocated my left ankle and ended up driving myself to the ER and had to have one one, but 2 surgeries to fix the ankle.  It took me 6 months of being in a cast and on crutches before I could try to walk on the ankle.It’s been a hard year for me but I am not the type to just give up.  I believe God is watching out for me and better days are ahead.   I now have a great Job that I just love and work hard every day.  I have made my mistakes in life and know that I am better than what most people see in me.  I have a very kind heart and if you ever get the chance to meet me you will see that I love ever one and ever thing in life.  Life is too short for regrets, I can’t change what I did yesterday; I can’t only change what I will do tomorrow.

Some things people don’t know about me.  I love to sing to love songs when I’m alone.  I wish I could play the  guitar.  I love a cold snowy night, a quiet walk on a warm summer night or the sound of a thunder storm.  I love the Lord with all my heart and soul.

Currently listening:
Dream Big
By Ryan Shupe & the Rubberband
Release date: 2005-09-06
March 12, 2008 – Wednesday

My Dad
Category: Blogging

With ever thing that has been going in my life I all most forgot today would have been my dads birthday!  My dad passed away January 1, 1992 and I miss he every day.  I am the only kid my dad had with my mother.  Dad adapted my sister and younger brother but not my oldest brother.  When did passed away, it was New Years Eve 1991 and after midnight came and went, everyone went to bed.  At the time I was only 26 at the time and I was living at home and my girlfriend was staying the night with me.  About 2 AM my mother yells down to me that she is taking dad into the hospital.  I come out of my basement room and look up the stairs just in time to see dad, and I got to looking into his eyes for less than a second and I know he was going.

My dad never said to me that he loved me, I just know!  But when I got to look into his eyes that night, I know he was saying I love you!  I miss him and I have been feeling so bad about my mother, I can’t take it much more.  I am not ready to give her up!  I can’t stop myself from crying,  I still can’t drive and my brother was going to take me in to see her tonight, but it never happened.  I miss mom and with her not being able to talk, it has to be hard for her.

Well, I feel a little better, one day at a time.  Thanks for everyone’s thoughts and prayers, that do mean allot to me.

March 6, 2008 – Thursday

My mother
Category: Religion and Philosophy

Well as if breaking my ankle and having sugary on it wasn’t hard enough for me.  This morning my 78 year old mother had a bad stroke and we had to call 911 and they took her into the hospital.  She can not move the right arm and can not talk to us.  She is awake and listens to what we tell her, but you can tell she is so very confused.  This is really hard on me and my oldest brother Alan.  We both have been with her all day but I had to go home so I could put my foot up and get some of the swelling to go down.

We did contact my mothers minister and she stopped by when they still had mother in the ER.   God and faith has been a very important roll in my life the last year or so.  I am very lost right now that all the problems with my foot and now this.  We have a older sister that lives in Pittsburgh, PA.  and I think she is trying to fly in sometime tomorrow.  Please pray for my mother, I love her very much and I know she’s not ready to go!

Thanks,  Kent

March 2, 2008 – Sunday

Superman falls, part 2, Current mood:  disappointed
Category: Blogging

OK, I have to write something.  I don’t like writing bad things about me or anyone else, but I have.  I also just don’t say what’s on my mind and I am not the kind of guy that will ask for help.  Most of you by now know I have a big, kind heart and I would do anything for a friend.   You should also know that God plays a very big roll in my life!  Up till Sunday night when I fall and broke my ankle I prayed every night for God to keep me safe as I knew that it was very dangerous outside delivering papers at night.  Now with what happened, you would think I would be upset with God, right?  Not at all, you see I knew in the back of my mind this might happen and God is trying to teach me something from it.  So, I am happy that it happened, but I am getting depressed because I am not ready to learn the lesion yet.

I believe the lesion has something to do with finding love, but other than that I don’t know.  I think back to when I was married and how it would have been like if this would have happened then.  The truth is, I think I am better off now, my family is looking out for me and I don’t believe the  ex wife would be here like my family is.  But it’s odd, because I was there for her when she had foot surgery.  So, you can’t make people care more that what they want to; for your well being.  The other things is, I have the power to be strong and I don’t need someone to love me to get better.

So, why am I looking for love?  The truth is, I don’t want to be alone and while I can be strong and deal with the pain and hardships of getting around and all the other little things; I can’t deal with not have a way to express what’s inside of my heart.  I think God is trying to show me how good I am, even when I am down!  The old saying is true, “You can’t keep a good man down”.  It’s not easy for me right now and I am dealing with some depression but I know better days are ahead, and I will be all right.  I just want to thank all the good friends that I have made on here so far and it proves that friendship does help heal!  Please feel free to ask any thing about me, I will try my best to give you a answer.

February 26, 2008 – Tuesday

Even Superman falls! Current mood:  sick
Category: Blogging

Even Superman can fall and break him ankle, lol  just like I did yesterday.  I had surgery on my ankle to place two screws.  On Monday morning while I was out doing my paper route I slipped on some ice and dislocated my left ankle and also broke the ankle and another bone in my left leg.  It happened about 4 AM and with me being superman, I got to my truck (I fall only about 5 feet from the truck) and drove my self (as fast as I could, since I was in a great deal of pain!) to the ER.

So here I sit, not in too much pain right now, waiting to get a cast on my left foot and leg and then go home.  On top of this I have come down with a bad chest cold, so I really not feel the hottest  right now.  I want to thank my family and friends for all there help and thoughts.  Even Superman needs help now and then, Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

February 24, 2008 – Sunday

Crohn’s disease, Current mood:  inspired
Category: Blogging

I love posting new blogs about me or what I believe, so what to wright tonight?  Well since I have adopted the name of Superman I have been thinking about my weaknesses.  About 15 years ago I was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease.  I November of 1992 I was placed in the hospital for about 2 weeks due to Anemia  (Iron deficiency).  My Hemoglobin (HgB) count was under 4 g/dL  and the normal count for a adult male should be 14 – 18 g/dL, so you can see why I was sent to the hospital.   If you suffer from low red blood (Hemoglobin) cell count, you may experience:

  • Fatigued
  • Weak
  • Short of breath
  • Increase in your heart rate
  • Dizzy or lightheaded when you change positions quickly

When I was diagnosed Anemia, my doctor didn’t know why and I was told to get to the ER right away.  I didn’t experience any of the signs above and I felt good, and I had a 8th grade football game to referee that afternoon.  I went ahead nad did the game and then checked myself into the ER that night.  After the ER staff run all there test, they didn’t know how I was alive!  I am told your Hemoglobin (HgB) count is critical when it’s under 4 g/dL witch I was.  After spend 2 weeks in the UIHC and undergoing test after test and being look at by med students, interns and doctor after doctor they sad I had Crohn’s disease.  The low blood count happened over long time and my body adjusted to the change and got used to it.  To get my blood count back up and quickly, I was given 2 unites of blood that night.  Until then, I was never in a hospital and I was very scared to be getting someone else’s blood.  The next day I could feel the difference, I felt like I had more energy and my color had come back,  I had look alike a ghost before I was told.

After getting out of the hospital,  I had a NG ( Nasogastric intubation) tub inserted through my nose, past the throat, and down into my stomach.  Not very fun at all, but once it was in the tub just hung out the left side of my nose.  This was needed so I could inject (using a syringe) a liquid diet into the tube to feed myself.  I had to do this to give the intestines rest and a chance to get better.  I had to do this for about 6 weeks, and had to forgo Thanksgiving dinner, oh well.  Other than looking funny with a small tube hanging out of my nose, I could do any thing I wanted to (OK, I couldn’t have anything to eat).

To make a very long story short, that’s how I found out that I had Crohn’s.  Now even though it’s a very bad disease and can kill you, I live with it ever day and not many people know I have it.

Although the cause of Crohn’s disease is not known, it is believed to be an  autoimmune disease that is genetically linked. Unlike AIDS that can be spread person to person, Crohn’s can not be spread by touching or intimate contact!  The highest relative risk occurs in siblings, affecting males and females equally. Smokers are three times more likely to get Crohn’s disease.

Crohn’s disease is related closely to another chronic inflammatory condition that involves only the colon called ulcerative colitis. Together, Crohn’s disease and ulcerative colitis are frequently referred to as inflammatory bowel disease (IBD).  Unlike the other major types of IBD, there is no known  drug based or surgical cure for Crohn’s disease.  Treatment options are restricted to controlling  symptoms, putting and keeping the disease in remission and preventing relapse.

I am lucky that Crohn’s does not stop me from living a normal life.  I just live with it and until now only tell the people I love about what I have, even then I don’t going to detail about what I feel.  Crohn’s is a very personal disease and I some times have a hard time talking about it.  If you like to know more, don’t be afraid to ask me; I will do my best to tell you what I can.   I will try to post another Blog later about what are some of the things I go through and how I deal with it.  Thanks for understanding and reading this far.

February 19, 2008 – Tuesday

Ideas, thoughts and suggestions
Category: Religion and Philosophy

Again I should be in bed but I got to thinking about why we sometimes do bad things.  If you believe in God then you must believe in the devil too.  I was once told the the devil gets to us through ideas, thoughts and suggestions.  The religion known as “Christianity” was invented by God himself to repair in part the wreck and ruin that had resulted from the Devil’s work.  He inflicted the wounds that Christ came to heal. He corrupted the human race.

Ephesians 4:26-28
“In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.

We know it’s when the Devil talks to us through Ideas, thoughts and suggestions. That’s when we make mistakes and the devil get a foothold on our souls and we do things that are not good.  We need to keep busy and work hard not only for us but also for others, so the devil can not get to us.
February 17, 2008 – Sunday

Just thinking
Current mood:  accomplished
Category: Blogging

Here it is, another cold winter night (well really it’s morning) in Iowa.  The forecast is calling for freezing rain and then turning to snow.  I should be getting to bed and getting some rest before I get called out to go plow snow some time later tonight.  If you don’t know me, I am some what of a night owl and tend to burn my candle at both ends.  I love to take chances, I’m not one for going with the flow.  I have had more ups and downs in my life than a roller coaster, but I wouldn’t change it from any thing.  You see, I have a very kind heart and love every thing and everyone.  It’s just, I don’t let many people see the real me.

Most people would think that I am a loner, sure I can keep to myself but when I find friends who love me for who I am; I really open up.  I believe that everyone is good no matter what has happened to them, or what they might have done wrong.  I am very understand about all the things people go through in life,  I have a open mind and love being free of all the rules that are set upon us.  I am a child of God and his love is all the matters.  I am no angel, I have sins just like you do and God still loves me.  It’s God’s love that keeps me going.

The greatest challenge in life is to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences, and mistakes yet stills loves everything about you.  I am that someone, I don’t care what you may have done in your past, I care about what you are going to do today.  Forgiveness is one of the best gifts a person can give someone.  Too many people nowadays belittle people, walk all over then or just don’t care.  I can’t help everyone but I  sure will do more than I can to make sure the people I care about are picked up and cared for.  No matter how small it might be, I will try my best to show them that life is good.

Well that’s about all I have for now, I’m getting tired and I better get my happy ass into bed.  Hope you like what I have to say and can get a peek into my would.  The last 8 years have been hard on me and I have kept it all in and in the last few months since I have been divorced I really feel like there as been a big change in me.  This Blog just gives me a way to express my feelings.

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