Something Beautiful

I once loved country music and still do but back in March I started to listen to Christian music and the first christian concert I got to see was the Newsboys.   When they played in Cedar Rapids back in June, the open with this song, Something Beautiful.  I didn’t know it at that time, but that song just makes my heart beat a little faster and I feel it inside; calling out to me.

I wanna start it over
I wanna start again
I want a new a new beginning
One without any end
I feel it inside
Calling out to me

So many of us wish we could start it over, start it again.  If your like me, you have made some mistakes and what you are doing isn’t getting you any where.  I was lucky, God help me start it all over even though at the time I5696_105460397006_93874507006_2675602_5503512_n didn’t think it was God who was was working in my life.  You don’t have be like me and be arrested to find a new beginning!  Are you tired, alone, sick or feeling unloved?   Maybe you think you have done too much bad things to others, who would love you?  I know the feeling, I was alone and the devil was taking me on a midnight ride and I didn’t like where we were going.  The night I spent in jail was the closest to hell that I ever want to get!  I know what hell looks like, it’s a 6″ floor drain in a holding cell.  That night I asked the good Lord to save me and to change me and he gave me something beautiful.

Starting over does not have to be a bad thing, don’t wait till God helps you start it over.  Your not alone, more people love you than you know and the first step is just admitting that you are week and need a new start.  It’s when we are alone and weak and don’t let others know the real truth that the devil steps in and takes us for a ride.  It only takes one person to tell you a lie about yourself and if you believe it;  the devil has you.  He wants you to be week and wants you to act like it’s all OK, so everyone else thinks your fine.  It takes trusting your friends and even trusting people you may not know to break the strong hold the devil has on your life.  You have to let just a little of God’s light shine into your life and you will start to see things in a different light.  As you give your life over to Jesus you will make new friends, friends who have been through some of the same bad times.   The devil is a lair and your enemy don’t trust him!

You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. (John 8:44 NIV)

It’s when we are down and at our weakest that we find out who we are and what were made of.  They say that the best way to measure a tree is when it’s down but unlike a tree, it’s what we do after were down that counts.  If your down, ask for help and seek out Jesus and turn to the Bible.  The Bible is the only book were you can start in at any place and understand it.  Don’t go it alone, find a church that you like and give it time.  Never give up and know that when you are at your weakest, there is something beautiful out there and it’s called Grace and it’s a gift that’s been paid for you by Jesus Christ.

Your Brother in Christ,


Starting over

Two years ago if you would have told me that I will have to start my life all over I would have told you no way, that’s just too hard!  How does one rebuild lost or damaged relationships?  How do you get over all the wrong you have done?  Or even better, how do you break the bonds that the devil hold with you?  I don’t know how I am doing it but I am rebuilding my life!  The devil doesn’t think so, I just think he misses me!  Just like Jesus works through us for the good the devil works through us for the bad.  The sad thing is most people don’t know or see how both Jesus and the devil works!

The devil was trying to send me this message the other day.  “They are still going the wrong way but they think they are doing OK” This is what a “friend” I have on facebook posted on her wall and I know it was meant for me.  I wonder “who” told her that I was going the wrong way?  I don’t think Jesus would say that but I would put it past the devil to get her to say that.  The more you pull away from the devil the harder he will try to get you back!   What’s also wrong whit her statement is that I don’t have to “think” that I’m OK because I trust in the Lord and he will NEVER lead me wrong!

I’m sorry she feels this way because I have hurt her very much.  I pray that she can let Jesus come into her life and break the hold that the devil has on her.  We have to live a God centered life and not a “I” centered life but when you don’t know Jesus that’s very hard to do.

Joel Osteen said it best, “Losers focus on what there going through.  Winners focus on where there going”  I know that some day I’ll have a place in Heaven.  With out any doubt, Jesus has saved me.  Two years ago life wasn’t worth living, I wanted to die!  I thought about killing my self all the time but just couldn’t “do it”.  The two things that saved me was God and my mother.  I couldn’t do that to ether one of them.  But still, I wanted to die so bad; I even hoped that God would take me!

Life is so different now.  It’s not great, I still have some big problems to work out but because I know and  feel God’s love I want to live life!  Now I’m afraid to die.  So, no matter what others may think about me I know “I am not who I once was” and it’s not about me any more.  I have given my life to Jesus and now live by Gods commandments.  I no longer try to prove that I am going the right way to anyone, if what I do is right; it will show.  For the people who are going the wrong direction and see me going the other direction they can not see that they are the ones that are lost and may God open there eyes and find the way to Jesus.